what day is it??

It's only Thursday and my motivation is already sort of slipping away. I know it's stupid, but I feel fatter today than I did on Monday. I've gone a few days with no booze and eating rabbit food all day and not even having treats at night with hubby! That a-hole has probably already lost like 20 pounds. Guys suck hairy balls when it comes to weightloss

Last night that chili turned out to be amazeballs. I brought some for lunch today, but my boss offered me In N Out, so of course I took that instead. The way I figure, my lunch was juuuust about under 500 calories. http://www.in-n-out.com/pdf/nutrition_2008.pdf According to the nutrition menu, my double double with no onions and most of the cheese scraped off (I don't like to ask for "one cheese, please" because I feel like that's taking it too far when I've already gone with the super secret protein style in the first place), I should be able to squeeze in just under 500 calories. I also didn't order fries. I DID eat some of my boss' fries on the way back to the office, but that's my little secret. I also skipped the soda and kept with my sugar free, pure cranberry juice with water mixture. After my satisfying lunch, I promptly polished off my snack size baggie with exactly 1 serving of yogurt covered pretzels (courtesy of Sprouts and part of my $16 bill). I'm not hungry. I feel fat and lazy.

Tonight I am making shredded pork sandwiches. Unfortunately, it's not my favorite, so why did I even decide to put that on the menu for the week?!?!? It's covered in BBQ sauce which I'm sure is awesome for the "diet". I put it in the crockpot, poured a can of beer over it, dumped about 3/4 of the bottle of BBQ sauce, sprinkled on some paprika, cumin, garlic salt and corriander. I ended up pouring a cup of water in as well since the meat didn't look covered enough to me.

I'm going to stop for some fresh rolls before I pick up the baby. I was going to do that at lunch, but again... I had In N Out.

Next week? We start exercising

Kill me now